~ The 24-Karat King ~
by
Roberta Olsen Major
My
mother was what you might call a betting woman.
Before I was born, she bet the dark-skinned stranger would take her with him if
she gave him everything she had worth giving.
She
lost.
When
I was a baby, she bet the color of my skin would fade and I would look pale as
cream like all the other villagers’ children by the time I was toddling.
Lost
again.
She
bet the tunes I hummed before I could even speak would disappear when I found my
words.
She
lost that one, too.
She
bet the lamed leg, broken as the village midwife yanked me sideways from the
womb, would grow straight and strong.
Nope.
She
bet that, sooner or later, people would stop staring at me, other children would
play with me, I would grow up happily enough in the village where I was born,
that I would marry, and raise children of my own.
She
lost everything on that one.
But
it wasn’t just the big things she laid wager on. No, if I dropped my bread,
she’d bet on which side would hit the dirt, and if I’d be able to rescue it
before it was stolen by a stray cat or starving cur. If I skinned a knee, she’d
wager on how long it would take to heal. She’d bet on whether the baker was
going to extend us credit today, on how many potatoes we were going to have dug
up from the garden by the end of the week, on when it would rain, or when the
first spring flowers would push through the soil of the garden.
She
lost all those bets--but it was of no consequence, because she was only betting
with me, and I never pressed her to pay.
And
if that was as far as it went, what was the harm?
But
no, she had to bet with the biddies about whether So-and-So was going to give
birth to a boy or girl. And that cost her a bundle, because there was always
somebody about to give birth in our village, and Mam always got it wrong.
She
stopped in at the tavern from time to time, and hovered around the dice-throwers
and the card-players, though I tugged on her hand and begged her to come home.
But her itch for wagering got the better of her there, and many times, she lost
every last copper we’d scrabbled so hard to earn, and we had to go hungry for
the week.
Still, it was only coppers. There were always more to be earned by hard work and
long hours--and Mam was a hard worker when the betting sickness wasn’t on her.
But
then there was the time that she’d already lost her coppers, so she ran home and
gathered up what trinkets she could find and ran back. She lost them all in less
than a quarter of an hour--even the ivory comb and looking glass no bigger than
the palm of a baby’s hand, the only things (aside from me) she’d got from that
dark stranger in exchange for the only true treasure she had to give him.
It
was like a fever then, the wagering, and like a fever, it made those close to
her sick as well.
“I’ve nothing left to wager,” she would cry when the dice fell against her, as
they always did.
“One
of your little Wren’s songs then,” a villager would suggest from time to time.
“For don’t they fall like gold from such a little basket as she?”
And
so she would bet, and so she would lose, and so I would sing, my voice far
bigger than my body. The betting lust would cool in my mam’s eyes as the song
wove around her, the villagers’ faces would soften, someone might even press a
piece of bread into my hand, or an apple, or a copper coin. Limping on my
crooked leg, I would tug my mam’s hand, leading her home in the hush of silence
that fell after the last golden note stilled.
No
good would come of this. I knew it, even as a child, and even more so as I
ripened to that all-knowing age of young womanhood.
A
stranger came to our village when I was half-past twelve. He wore rich fabrics
that looked soft to the touch, though his face was sharp as the cliffs of far
off Matrinko Mountain.
Did
I mention Mam’s weakness for strangers?
One
moment I was singing a funny little tune about what we would eat for supper,
Mam’s hand swinging mine, humming affection like a warming spell between us, and
the next moment she was tugging me into the tavern, fondling the dice like they
were housecats, and putting everything she had on the table.
Which, of course, she promptly lost.
But
her eyes were over-bright with the fever and throw again she must.
“But
what will you wager?” the stranger asked, his own eyes glowing with an unholy
light, though his voice was calm.
“Myself,” Mam said, bold as you please, as if her work-worn body and
fever-bright eyes were worth the ransom of kings.
The
stranger shook his head.
I
breathed my relief.
But,
“My girl child,” Mam said next, desperation in her eyes and voice.
I
shrank back into the shadows, the hum dying in my throat. I drew my cloak around
me as if I could hide, but it was too late. The stranger’s pale gaze was upon
me, his eyes narrowing.
“Mam,” I whispered. I tried to summon a song, but my throat froze, tried to hum,
but no sound would rise up from the small cold lump that was once my heart.
“Done,” said the stranger to my mother as he took up the dice.
One
dot and three he threw, and I breathed a little easier. Almost could I feel a
note of relief rise from my expanding heart. Even Mam, with her miserable luck,
ought to be able to throw higher than four.
Her
hand trembling, her eyes aglow with the betting sickness, she caught up the dice
and threw them on the wooden table, where they skittered for what seemed like an
hour.
At
last, they stopped.
One
dot and two.
The
note of hope slunk back down my throat and hid its face in a shadowed corner of
my heart.
Mam
had lost again.
And
the stranger reached into the shadows and plucked me forward into the light.
There was a stillness in the tavern.
Mam
shook her head as if to clear it of some fog, and opened her mouth--to protest,
I like to think, or to make some cry of remorse--but it was too late. The
stranger was on his feet, bowing his thanks to my mother and the tavern keeper,
and dragging me out with him into the star-spangled night.
He
jerked me to him and, even at half-twelve, I knew enough of the ways of men and
strangers to fear what was next.
My
fear strengthened me. I curved my fingers into claws, prepared to scratch his
face with them--but he only tossed me up onto his horse and mounted after, his
arms around me as secure and impersonal as rope. Then he dug his booted heels
into the ribs of the beast and we were off into the night, leaving behind the
tavern and my mam and the village forever.
There was no kindness in him, the stranger, but I sensed no malice directed at
me either. He spared me no words. My frozen heart melted just enough for a small
hum to creep up my throat. If I could sing to him, I knew he would never harm
me.
But
at the first notes, the man dug into his pockets and extracted twin twists of
wool, which he inserted matter-of-factly into his ears to block the sound so
that my music could not reach him. It could only comfort me--and I hardly
thought I was worth it. Still, I hummed under my breath and allowed the sound to
wrap around me like a shawl. The horse’s ears twitched, so maybe it wasn’t
altogether wasted.
I
expected to miss my mam, but discovered I was an unnatural child in more ways
than one, for the night air cooled my cheeks as I huddled in my cloak, the
lullaby in my throat soothed me, and the gait of the horse lulled me into the
sleep of a baby cradled in a loving mother’s arms.
I was half-twelve--and the night my mam lost me to the roll of the dice was the deepest sleep of my life.